25.-26. A Hesitation Before Birth
Posted on April 26th, 2009 by desert ratPosted in National Poetry Month, Poetry, inspired by, writing/books | 8 Comments »
The first in a series of patchwork poems. This one is a variation on found poetry. The lines used in the poems were taken from writings by Hesse, Kafka and H.G. Wells.
I.
Enhaloed now in birds,
how mockingly bright the day seemed
bells borne back and forth
by the drifting of the tide
a film about Palestine in the afternoon.
He spent two days in pursuit of her,
days of impatient happiness
(one always suspected some ingenuity
in ambush, behind his lucid frankness);
Vast, indeed, was the change that we beheld.
Were we crazy? We ran through the park
at night, swinging branches;
what might appear when that hazy curtain
was altogether withdrawn?
What evenings, walks, despair
are still before me?
Nothing, nothing. This is the way
I raise up ghosts before me,
the profounder grew the stillness.
II.
Dim and wonderful is the vision
I have conjured in my mind:
Seven girls, one of them short,
a sweet look, a white rabbit
on her shoulder,
the cat is playing with the goats;
These things are mere abstractions,
remnant of a faith.
That is just where the whole
world has gone wrong:
we are always getting away
from the present moment;
in peacetime, you don’t get anywhere,
in wartime you bleed to death.
Then open yourself
let the human person come forth
breathe in the air and the silence:
My life is only
a hesitation before birth.
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All of the lines in the preceding poems were borrowed from the following works (with some very slight tweaking):
- Narziss and Goldmund by Herman Hesse (all about pursuit of self)
- Franz Kafka’s Diaries (the last few lines are from Kafka; who knew he could be so Zen?)
- The Time Machine & War of the Worlds by H.G. Wells (a secret poet; the very first line is his. In my memory, the pioneers of science fiction were much more formal and matter-of-fact in their writing style than many writers are today. But on re-reading, I realized that Wells’ writing was full of unexpected passion and poetry, wonderful lines that shone out in the midst of the grimmest of scenes.)
Thanks to Sweet Talking Guy for the old fashioned cut-and-paste idea. (Once I’d thumbed through books picking out lines and writing them down, I then cut all the lines out with scissors and taped them together to form poetry).



