Final Week Count-Down: Random Excerpt #3

Back in the vast, dripping, bare, cold expanse that the signs on the door proclaimed to be level B3, Eve knelt on the concrete floor. She seemed to be looking at something. At first Mitch thought it was just a stain, or a puddle. Then he realized she was not looking at the floor, but at her own hands, with a kind of blank bafflement, as if she had been holding something only a second before, and now it was inexplicably gone.

Mitch spun around, remembering the darkness, how it had moved, and the mouth that had opened wide, and swallowed them in, and how he had thought he would feel the teeth tearing at him, shredding him, how he had expected to be devoured, crushed, obliterated. But it hadn’t happened. It hadn’t been a dream, either – everything that had happened, had been real, in its own way, but here, on level B3, in what he realized now was nothing more or less than a prison, almost no time at all had passed. Seconds, maybe, if that.

Someone was missing, though. There had been a boy with them, but no, the boy had never been here, only there. Mitch shook his head, realized instantly that this was a mistake – the pain was back, a hot steel blade piercing his skull, severing thoughts and reason.

“Where…” he began, but could not finish the question. He had been about to ask, “where’s the kid?”, but he knew what the answer would be.

“That’s it.” Eve’s voice was as tight as her hands, which had curled into clenched fists. She rose smoothly to her feet, like a dancer, her face set, eyes dangerously bright. “I’ve had enough of this. I don’t know what’s taking them so long, but whatever it is, I don’t care. I’m done. We’re getting out, now.”

Mitch momentarily considered questioning the certainty with which Eve made this statement, then decided it was wiser not to.

“Whatever you say,” he said. “You want to tell me how, I’m all ears.”

“Ever tried to move a mountain?” The question was unexpected, but then again, so was everything else lately.

“Not personally, no.”

“Well,” said Eve. “There’s a first time for everything, right?”

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Final Week Count-Down: Random Excerpt #2

I’ve been so caught up with writing and rehearsals that I completely forgot I was going to post regular excerpts here.  So I decided to make up for it by posting one a day for the final 6 days of NaNoWriMo. Looking over the previous passage, I realized it was far too long for a blog post, so these will all be short and easily digestible (like cookies; although given the complete lack of either context or editing, cookies that fall into the “how did these get here, and why do they have a sign saying ‘eat me’?” category).

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Sometimes, in a good moment, when the sun emerged from behind the clouds and kissed the world so the grass shone green once more and winks of blue hinted at a real sky, when the puddles lay like pools of light and the telephone wires caught fire and stretched before him along the road in looping lines of molten gold – then, and only then, and only sometimes, he would remember his name.  He could no longer be sure whether the name belonged to the man in the dreams, or who he had been before the long walk began, when he had other men at his side, and at his back, but it was a name nonetheless, and so better than nothing.

In these moments, he would say it out loud, relishing in the sound of it, despite the hoarse, cracked, phlegm choked sound of his voice.  He would say it over and over, matching it to the rhythm of his steps, the beat of his heart, the drawing in and exhaling of breath, the sound his boots made against the gravel, or the packed earth, or the asphalt.  He would repeat it until his voice cleared, until the wretched, tortured sound of it smoothed, morphed into something that sounded like a real voice.  He would continue to say it, until his voice began to grown hoarse and dry once more, and then he would stop, and take a draw on his canteen.

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NaNo Novel excerpt #1

Everyone knew him as Old Man Whitling.  Jenny Dearborn said it sounded more like a description than a name, and he had been known to take a pen-knife to a piece of wood from time to time, although he hadn’t the knack that Charlie had.  Percy Cox said they’d called Mr. Whitling that even before he was old.  He had been that kind of man almost since birth, it was said, going on about how things were better “back in the day”, although what day this referred to was never precisely specified.

Charlie managed to withstand the old man’s piercing blue gaze for all of five minutes, then decided he didn’t like being stared at by strange old men.  It was creepy, and rude besides, and it was distracting him from bridge building.  Charlie put the last of the foundation stones in place, and straightened up, looking the old man square in the eyes.  He was tall enough now, taller than most everyone at school, even the teachers.

“Hello,” he said.  Then, because his mother had taught him to be polite, “My name’s Charlie.”

“I know,” Old Man Whitling said.  His voice was like marbles rolling around in a clay bowl.  The rattle turned into a cough, and then a black gob of spit that arched out over the stream.  “Whole county knows who you are.  ‘The boy who found the body’, that’s what they say.”

“Is it?”  Charlie couldn’t help feeling pleased that people he had never met might know who he was.

“It is.”  Old Man Whitling pointed a thick-knuckled finger at the stones, and the piles of carefully hewn branches.  “That won’t hold you up.  Wouldn’t hold up a squirrel.”

“It’s not for me,” Charlie explained patiently.  “Not for squirrels, either.”

“For who, then?”

Charlie shrugged, embarrassment making his cheeks hot.  Old Man Whitling did not seem like the type who would understand about the Walkers, and so Charlie said, “It’s just practice.  Like making a model, before you make the real thing.”

“Sounds like a waste of time,” Old Man Whitling said.  “Why not just build the real thing first time out?”

“It’s not as easy as that,” Charlie said.

Old Man Whitling pushed himself away from the tree and stumped forward, leaning heavily on the walking stick.  He squinted at the pile of sticks, and spat again, this time into the tangle of water mint that was curling around the submerged stones, teased there by the slow current.
“Why not?”

“It’s engineering,” Charlie said.

In his mind this was all the explanation that was required, but the old man stared at him, clearly waiting for him to continue.

“If you want it to work,” Charlie said, “You have to fix it so that the force and torque balance without exceeding the strength of any individual piece.  Otherwise it falls down.”  He said it slowly, the way you might explain something to a not-very-bright child.  It was one of those things he thought everybody knew, like how lift makes birds fly.  He wondered what the old man had been doing all his life, that he had missed out on such basic information.

Old Man Whitling looked at Charlie as if he had starting speaking in a foreign language.

After a moment, the old man said, “So, read a lot of books, do you?”

Charlie shrugged.  “Some.  For school, mostly.”

Old Man Whitling pulled out a dirty grey handkerchief, put it to his nose, and proceeded to make a sound somewhere between a fog-horn and an elephant’s roar.  He then stuffed the handkerchief back in his pocket.  “And what do you do when you’re not reading books, for school mostly?”

Charlie looked at the sticks and stones, and back at the old man, wondering if this was a trick question.  “I build things,” he said.  “Sometimes I have to take them apart first.  But I usually manage to put them back together again.”

“Usually.”  This time the wheezing sound the old man made sounded almost like a laugh.  Then his massive brows dove together, forming a deep cartoonish V, and he glared at Charlie from under them like a troll peering out from under a ledge.  “So then, Mr. Charlie Dreydon, the builder-book-reader.  What, exactly, are your intentions?”

Charlie considered this.  Either the old man was having trouble grasping the simple concept that a twelve-year-old boy might want to build a bridge out of sticks on a sunny summer day, or he was referring to something else.

“With regard to what?” Charlie asked, as neutrally as possible.

Old Man Whitling made that wheezing sound again.  “With regard to what,” he echoed, and slapped his thigh.  “Ha.  I mean, of course, with regard to our Abigail.”

Charlie felt the heat in his cheeks spreading out to his ears and down his neck, and knew he was blushing, and that his freckles would surely be standing out like a thousand brown polka dots on a bright red field.  He tried to hide his face behind his hair, which was over-long – Grandma Dreydon would soon be after him with a pair of sharp shearing scissors – but not quite long enough.

“Ah,” Old Man Whitling said, as if Charlie had answered him.  “Your silence speaks volumes, my young friend.”

Charlie felt a surge of anger, and clenched his fists to keep it from spilling out into words.  He wanted to tell the old man that he was most definitely not his friend, and that he had a gob of spittle on his scruffy grey beard, and would he please go away and stop bothering him, but he gritted his teeth and said none of these things.

Charlie gave another shrug, and resumed his work by the stream’s edge, putting his back to the old man, doing his best to pretend that he didn’t care.

“I don’t even know her,” he said.  By which he meant, of course, she doesn’t even know that I exist.  But that would have made him sound like a pathetic, love-lorn sheep, which he most certainly was not.

“Oh, but you will,” Old Man Whitling declared.  “And I need to know that your intentions are of the noble variety, pure as the driven snow, utterly without guile or mischief, because otherwise you and I will have to have a serious Conversation, and it won’t be pretty.”

The old man said the word ‘conversation’ in such a way as to make it plenty clear that he really meant something else, something more along the lines of ‘confrontation’, but infinitely less pleasant.

Charlie turned and faced the old man.  “She’s never even said a single word to me.  So it seems to me, my intentions don’t matter one way or the other.” He kept his voice calm and matter-of-fact.  It was what his mother liked to call his diplomat’s voice.  She was sure that someday her youngest boy would cease his incessant dabbling with tree houses and bridges and old short-wave radios, and grow up to become a famous politician.  He had given up trying to dissuade her of this notion, since telling her that he would rather earn his wages as an organ grinder’s monkey, or perhaps a rotten apple taster, had not made much of an impact on her convictions.

“Look here, boy.”  Old Man Whitling took two long strides forward, so that his spit-speckled beard was almost touching Charlie’s nose, his rank tobacco breath rolling out like a cloying fog.  He stuck out a long, gnarled digit and poked Charlie’s chest with it, twice, so that Charlie had to take a step back to keep his balance, the heel of his boot splashing into the mud at the stream’s edge.

“I’ll tell you this once, and never again,” the old man snarled.  “One day that girl will see you for what you are.  And if you break her heart, so help me God I will end you.”

Fear found Charlie then, a sick, sharp heat that rose from his stomach up to his Adam’s apple and turned his limbs rigid.  He understood, now, why everyone always kept their distance from Old Man Whitling, why even the tall, horse-strong farm-hands nodded their head in deference whenever he walked by.  Charlie decided if it ever did come time for a confrontation, he would prefer to have it with the snaggle-toothed old Grizzly bear who had taken to rummaging through the town dump and stealing all the carp from Mary Godstone’s fish pond.

It was only after Old Man Whitling had stomped off down the path that led to the Miller’s house, muttering under his breath all the while, that Charlie grasped the implication of what had been said.

One day Abby Whitling would see him for what he was, and that would somehow lead to the possibility of his breaking her heart.  It was, he thought, by way of being the oddest back-handed compliment he had ever received.  Charlie realized his mouth was hanging open, and pressed it shut.  When he resumed his construction, he did so whistling, with a smile on his lips.

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Sarah Slean – Looking for Someone

(No video, just the song).  Sarah sang this for us at the Market Hall concert tonight.  She could have done the whole show solo, just her and the piano, and it would have been amazing.  It was great to finally see her live.  She’s every bit as charming, goofy, and wonderfully peculiar as you’d expect from her songs, with a hint of otherworldliness that suggests she might have been one of the stolen children, who came back one day, on a whim. I’m glad she decided to stick around.

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Out of Words

I am out of words, and yet
they riot inside me
a cacaphony of complaints,
laments, exultations, exhalations,
rants, moans, cries, whispers
(…uncomfortable silences…)

There is always a scene
taking place somewhere
(the grips and gaffers
never get a break)
all the green rooms overlap,
overlying the stage, skulking
in warehouses, alleyways, street corners,
languishing on cold pebbled beaches,
vacant sun-blasted plains,
deep green forests wet with rain
sun burning fog drowning light blasting shadows

Words fill me to overflowing
a non-stop babble of voices,
music, arguments, diatribes,
calls to arms, well-worn jokes,
soap box monologues

Yet cat-like they ignore
my pleas, not one will come
to my beck and call
they will not heed, sit, stay, fetch, roll,
behave – oh, they will bark,
and bite, and run, how they run
as far out of reach as truth and astronauts

They shun this infernal machine
too many of their siblings birthed here
too many caged, corralled, squashed,
beaten into paragraphs, sentences,
point form bulleted lists
formatted, chopped, diced, broiled
tidied, cleaned, defaced, butchered

Refusing digital bondage
they yet mock the bald antiquity,
the quaint solidity of paper
faced with the laughable simplicity
of a black roller-ball pen
my prose stumbles and staggers,
wanders off course, forgets itself,
its name, the way home,
muttering in confused circles
hands flying like tethered birds
flapping vainly for a kind of freedom

We are only here by virtue
of this flesh and blood interface, this
thinking machine, this sum
of immeasurable parts
yet the interface is faulty, limited, dull-
witted, and far, far too slow
for these frenetic whims and fancies

This resistant weariness, this sullied
sullen petty vanity of vapours
sits not well with me
I would soar among the stars,
if only I could teach myself
how to forget when falling
how to forget to hit the ground.

– T.H.
05.16.11 (Amadeus journal)

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If I were

If I were
a post-it note
expressing poetry
on a white board
affixed
to a crumbling
brick wall

(someone
stuck a wad
of bright pink
chewing gum
in the hole
as if it were
a secret message
passed from
person to person)

I would be
the reincarnation
of a doodle copied
from Kurt Vonnegut’s
scrap book

Only I would ever know
the replicant’s song
before he died
something about
starships burning
and the shoulders
of Orion

 

T. Haney
12.04.10

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Beginnings and Endings

Starting again in the death of the year.

New space, new words.  More to come in November.

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